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[11 Oct 2009|09:08pm] |
I need to start making better choices, I am a mess. This morning I woke up with cigarette burns on my arms and throw up all over the back seat of my car. fml. I don't know what to do with myself anymore. Even surrounded by people I feel so alone. I don't know what to do to make myself happy anymore. My grades are shit this semester. I attend all my classes and do all my work but the quality is slipping because I just don't care anymore. I met this guy, Cameron. He's a Delta Tau Delta, currently can't drive cause a DUI, is emotionally unavaible and completely totally gorgeous. He helped me pursue my desire to stay shitfaced but got fed up when I was not offering to give anything back, I never even kissed him. He went and found some slut from my high school, screwed her and made sure that I found out. Hate men. I have no friends anymore. I haven't gotten a phone call or text from anyone other than my father in probably a decent ten days, he only calls to make sure I am still alive as he watches no transactions being made on my account because I don't even eat anymore. I am completely isolated. I hate my life. Basically every weekend I consider which way I want to kill myself, but I know I can't because who would take care of my dog?
What am I going to do? I can't live like this anymore.
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[15 Aug 2004|10:58am] |
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