urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jt_dawg MDP MDP 2009-10-12T04:19:44Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jt_dawg:54867 2009-10-12T04:19:44Z 2009-10-12T04:19:44Z I need to start making better choices, I am a mess. This morning I woke up with cigarette burns on my arms and throw up all over the back seat of my car. fml. I don't know what to do with myself anymore. Even surrounded by people I feel so alone. I don't know what to do to make myself happy anymore. My grades are shit this semester. I attend all my classes and do all my work but the quality is slipping because I&nbsp;just don't care anymore. I met this guy, Cameron. He's a Delta Tau Delta, currently can't drive cause a DUI, is emotionally unavaible and completely totally gorgeous. He helped me pursue my desire to stay shitfaced but got fed up when I was not offering to give anything back, I never even kissed him. He went and found some slut from my high school, screwed her and made sure that I found out. Hate men. I have no&nbsp;friends anymore.&nbsp;I haven't gotten a phone call or text from anyone other than my father in probably a decent ten days,&nbsp;he only calls to make sure I am still alive as he watches no&nbsp;transactions being made on my account because I&nbsp;don't even&nbsp;eat anymore.&nbsp;I am completely isolated. I hate my life. Basically every weekend I consider which way I want to kill myself, but I&nbsp;know I&nbsp;can't because who would take care of my dog? <br /><br />What am&nbsp;I going to do? I can't live like this anymore. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:jt_dawg:1525 2004-08-15T17:58:57Z 2007-02-18T15:18:45Z <center><strong>FRIENDS ONLY!</strong><br>so, all you that have commented before, yeah; its been erased. <br> add me && fill out this form. kthanks. :)<br><br> <textarea> &lt;b&gt;Name:&lt;/b&gt; &lt;b&gt;Age:&lt;/b&gt; &lt;b&gt;Locatation:&lt;/b&gt; &lt;b&gt;How'd you find my journal?&lt;/b&gt; &lt;b&gt;Tell me something intersting about you:&lt;/b&gt; </textarea></center>